It's not so bad....

:the second job has turned out to be only one day a week, this week I'm not even on the schedule, which is nice for time but not for the paycheck. I usually get overly anxious about life when I'm starting new things, like a new job. The job has turned out to be very easy and fun. :Basketball starts this week and practice is only one night a week, not two nights like I assumed it would be. That is a relief! :Christmas shopping is 1/2 way done thanks to my husband. He wanted to go out on Black Friday for fun(he's always worked on that day for the last twenty years) and he went by himself, I slept in! So really it's not so bad and I am learning to not stress out about stuff and enjoy the season!

Excuse me, while I.....

let a few things out of this brain of mine. So many thoughts are swirling around in here that I'm starting to have some anxiety. :a second job! What am I crazy?!! I was very excited at first because I love, love, love the store that I will be working at, but now the anxiety is creeping in that I'm going to have even less time at home. I can't even get things (like laundry, dishes, cleaning, grocery shopping and cooking) under control now! breath in, breath out :Christmas shopping! My point in taking this second job (which is seasonal) was to have extra money for Christmas, but my fear is that I will be so wiped out after working that I will spend the extra $$ on unnecessary convenience items like eating out because I'm to tired to cook or I didn't plan a meal. And then I will have no money for Christmas shopping! :food! My oldest child and my dear husband so kindly told me this weekend that I don't cook (what is their idea of) dinner anymore:{ At first I was really ticked, how dare they say such a thing, but in reality they are right. Ever since Barry started working this night job, I have felt like really out of the loop during the week. It started during baseball season when, Michael had to eat before a game like at 5pm, Barry didn't want to eat so early because he just ate when he got up at 3pm, so every body was eating at different times. How can I cook a meal when we didn't even eat at the same time? Now baseball is done but basketball starts in about two weeks, it's going to be the same thing again. :time for me! Oh, where is the time for me! There are things that I like to do instead of working, and providing food, drink, and entertainment for others! It can't all be done.....excuse me while I go find my paper bag!!

My thoughts

We go to church on Sunday mornings most of the time, lately it seems that Sundays are the only days we have to relax here at home and catch up on necessary chores. But I attend every wed night service while the boys are in Awanas and the reoccurring message that I've gotten has been God is in Control. Simple, huh. Those four simple little words have become my new mantra "God is in Control". This past year has not been an easy one for me, moving, starting over financially, finding new friends and where I fit in. Getting used to living close to family again. It's all been hard. Don't get me wrong, it's been wonderful, too and I'm thankful that we had the opportunity to do this. But it's not easy, and I find myself through out the day repeating, "God is in Control", late at night when I can't sleep because of worry, "God is in Control", when I've had it with the boys behavior, "God is in Control". And as someone said Wed night, what ever challenge, struggle, hard time God brings us to, HE will bring us through it. God is in control!

Photos

********************************* ******************************************************************* I absolutely love to take pictures! Growing up we were always taking pictures at family gatherings, special events and even just for fun! We have tons of photo albums and pictures everywhere. I can remember very vividly my sister taking me outside to take pictures with my wooden riding toy and my doll. She would tell me how to pose, where to look, etc. I was probably only three or four at the time. I've been trying to better my "eye" for photos recently and while reading another blog I found a cool picture of shadow people, so this my first attempt with the boys to make shadows but I'm hoping I can get them to try again. I always take crazy pictures with the boys like jumping on the bed, or off the swing trying to get them flying in the air! I hope they can look back on the pictures and have great memories of their childhood. Everybody say "cheese" and take lots of pictures!

A view out my window

This morning I was in my mood to toss out all unnecessary stuff. I get in this mood occasionally (probably not often enough). It's very easy to get overwhelmed with loads of stuff in a small house with four people who love to collect, recycle and reuse stuff. But I tackled the kitchen window and counters and after I finished I realized what a peaceful window view I have overlooking the backyard. I had to take a picture because I know myself and it probably won't stay looking like this for long. It will fill up with various and assorted stuff till I get in the mood to toss again.

A piece of "art" from my dad.

Don't look at the cluttered kitchen counter

and you will see the cute little bag I made for my neighbor's little girl. It took me about an hour from start to finish. I really love making bags of all kinds. I have the basic bag style under control, now I want to experiment with different stuff like zippers, buttons, etc.

So (sew) much fun! Ha!

Josh stopping to help a friend.

Come on in.....

Welcome to my new blog. This will be my space for rambling and gathering my thoughts. My desire in this endeavor is to learn to live more content in each day and each moment. I want to find the treasures of life in the little things.