It's not so bad....

:the second job has turned out to be only one day a week, this week I'm not even on the schedule, which is nice for time but not for the paycheck. I usually get overly anxious about life when I'm starting new things, like a new job. The job has turned out to be very easy and fun. :Basketball starts this week and practice is only one night a week, not two nights like I assumed it would be. That is a relief! :Christmas shopping is 1/2 way done thanks to my husband. He wanted to go out on Black Friday for fun(he's always worked on that day for the last twenty years) and he went by himself, I slept in! So really it's not so bad and I am learning to not stress out about stuff and enjoy the season!

Excuse me, while I.....

let a few things out of this brain of mine. So many thoughts are swirling around in here that I'm starting to have some anxiety. :a second job! What am I crazy?!! I was very excited at first because I love, love, love the store that I will be working at, but now the anxiety is creeping in that I'm going to have even less time at home. I can't even get things (like laundry, dishes, cleaning, grocery shopping and cooking) under control now! breath in, breath out :Christmas shopping! My point in taking this second job (which is seasonal) was to have extra money for Christmas, but my fear is that I will be so wiped out after working that I will spend the extra $$ on unnecessary convenience items like eating out because I'm to tired to cook or I didn't plan a meal. And then I will have no money for Christmas shopping! :food! My oldest child and my dear husband so kindly told me this weekend that I don't cook (what is their idea of) dinner anymore:{ At first I was really ticked, how dare they say such a thing, but in reality they are right. Ever since Barry started working this night job, I have felt like really out of the loop during the week. It started during baseball season when, Michael had to eat before a game like at 5pm, Barry didn't want to eat so early because he just ate when he got up at 3pm, so every body was eating at different times. How can I cook a meal when we didn't even eat at the same time? Now baseball is done but basketball starts in about two weeks, it's going to be the same thing again. :time for me! Oh, where is the time for me! There are things that I like to do instead of working, and providing food, drink, and entertainment for others! It can't all be done.....excuse me while I go find my paper bag!!